I’ve been on quite a break from my blogs lately, juggling school + a one year-old sassy little girl who has been on mama’s hip 24/7. I decided to take a summer class, Monday-Thursday from 10:15am to 12:20pm and let me tell you that was one of the hardest decisions I’ve made, but also one of the best feelings I have felt when I was able to get through it and pass it. I didn’t think that ONE summer class was going to take up most of my time, I truly thought it was just going to be a breeze, but I was wrong. Going every single day for two hours doesn’t seem like much, but it is when your one year old daughter decides to make it a habit to cling on to you from morning till night.
Going to school, especially college, wasn’t one of my strongest links when I graduated high school. I only decided to go back when Anais, our one year old daughter came into the picture. She was the little push I needed to keep going and get a degree. Without her, I do not think I would have continued my education as I am doing right now. Believe me when I say, it’s not easy! Especially when you are are constantly having to watch their every move, it gets very tough. Being a stay at home mom, truly doesn’t mean “you have all day to do things” THAT’S NOT THE CASE. Yes, you get to stay home and be with your little one all day but that doesn’t mean your little one doesn’t require all your attention. My daughter, loves my laptop… once this thing is open it’s like her little baby sensors go off and shes running to it ready to hit every button on this keyboard. On top of that, have you ever tried taking something away from a one year old sassy girl? Yeah it is not pretty.
I am learning how to prioritize school + Anais + wife duties, I am not an expert but I am still learning what works for me and my family. Nap times, and bed time is when this mama is able to open up her laptop and get some school work or blogging done. Does it mean I don’t procrastinate half the time? Heck no, procrastination is my middle name. Sometimes, I will stay up until 2am cramming in some last minute essay’s. Does it suck when I decide to procrastinate? Heck yes. Cause it takes the concept of “me time” when the baby is asleep, and it also means my husband is also stuck without me by his side for “us time.”
In order for you to achieve school, or anything that will help your future, is to have an answer for a “why, who, what?”
- WHY are you going to school for? So I could further my education in something I’m passionate about and be the best role model for my daughter.
- WHO are you going to school for? My daughter is the biggest one, but also for myself. I don’t think I ever done something that truly made me proud of myself (other then pushing out a 6 pound baby) So if I do this and succeed I know that I could do anything I set my mind to.
- WHAT are you going to school for? I am not going to lie, this question has been the hardest to answer, I am always changing my mind or just not sure on what I want to do or who I want to be. Especially because I not only think of myself but I think about my daughter and my husband, it’s not about just me anymore.
When you’re a young mom like me, it’s not easy to do things everyone your age is doing. In fact, it’s the opposite. Half the people I graduated with are in college, and are either almost done or already done, so seeing that used to make me a little disappointed in myself and sad, but then I remember that all great things in our life will come at different times. So don’t ever feel discouraged or ever doubt yourself because your peers are getting things done before you, be happy for them because when they see you succeed, 2,3,4 years from now, they will see that you actually pushed through it and did it as well. Becoming a mom only gives me more motivation to succeed and to make better decisions, and that how it’s supposed to be. So whatever you want to be in life or do in life, do it! Keep pushing, because one day you will make it.